13.4.07
full of thoughts
it's a hectic week but now it's over.
time is passing too fast. how i wish time could just stop. not turn back, but stop.
is it just me or what? i guess i am thinking too much but i can't stop myself. can i?
i will try harder to stop. thanks for that encouraging pat, jana. thanks for your continuous calls, jinli.
maybe what coach arik said was right, even though it sounded quite cheesy. but after many thoughts, i finally saw the true meaning of what he was trying to say.
i don't want to be the bad guy anymore. i had enough.
i'm sorry for what i've done and i already did what i had to do. what else can i do?
it's fated things must end this way and i don't know whether to accept it or not.
do you understand me? do you even try to?
should i let go? part of me says no. i really don't want to but as time passes, i'm sure my grip will just loosen and without noticing, i would have already let go.
( i pray that this won't happen)
i'm sorry.
RUOYU was here!
3:30 PM
